For the past 2 months

For the past 2 months, i learn to know you.

learn that you are pretty,

charming, sexy,

adorable,

sometimes ugly,

intelligent, tight by money,

such a considering son,

footballs

learn all the bad side of you,

how other people view u as.

its a mistake.

in the end, you were horrified our-gossips, hoax, & other people's perceptions.

i know that we were not even meant to be friends.

the separating line is wide -impossible.

is really a mistake. mistake.

now i cant even focus on studies.

For the past 1 month.

Hey guys,

For the past 1 month, i was definately too busy. Soon after got sacked as adc referee and garena forum hacked, i decided to put full focus on studies. And yeah, i did. But my study journey is not over yet.

i still have 2 weeks to go. but i guess,... i will online more often in coming weeks. cant wait to play dota again.

im so noob now. Only God knows how noob i am. i cant even fight last hit with AI. so sad.

Kris Allen - No Boundaries

Seconds, hours, so many days.
You know what you want,
But how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way.
What if my chances are already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away.
So here I am still holding on...

With every step, you climb another mountain.
With every breath, it's harder to believe.
You make it through the pain,
Weather the hurricanes to get to that one thing.
Just when you think the road is going nowhere,
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams,
They take you by the hand and show you that you can.
There are no boundaries, there are no boundaries.

I fall to the limit to stand on the edge.
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading,
But nothing's gonna bring me down.
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every light.
I've risked being safe and I always knew why.
I always knew why, so here I am still holding on.

With every step, you climb another mountain.
With every breath, it's harder to believe.
You make it through the pain,
Weather the hurricanes to get to that one thing.
Just when you think the road is going nowhere,
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams,
They take you by the hand and show you that you can...

You can go higher, you can go deeper.
There are no boundaries above or beneath you.
Break every rule,
'Cause there's nothing between you and your dreams.

With every step, you climb another mountain.
With every breath, it's harder to believe...

Yeah, there are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

With every step, you climb another mountain.
With every breath, it's harder to believe.
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes.
There are no boundaries, there are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries..

Kris Allen or Adam Lambert?

Kris Allen.. hm... husky voice.

While.. Adam Lambert higher pitching voice?

So which one do you like?

Sigh..!!

I FELT LIKE I WAS TRAPPED IN ONE OF THOSE TERRIFYING nightmares, the one where you have to run, run till your lungs burst, but you can't make your body move fast enough. My legs seemed to move slower and slower as I fought my way through the callous crowd, but the hands on the huge clock tower didn't slow. With relentless, uncaring force, they turned inexorably toward the end - the end of everything.

But this was no dream, and, unlike the nightmare, I wasn't running for my life; I was racing to save something infinitely more precious. My own life meant little to me today.

How? Love?

I'D HAD MORE THAN MY FAIR SHARE OF NEAR-DEATH-BROKEN-HEARTED experiences; it wasn't something u ever really got used to.

It seemed oddly inevitable, though, facing death again. Like i really was marked for disaster. I'd escaped time and time again, but it kept coming back for me..

Still, this time was so different from the others.

You could run from someone u feared, u could try to fight someone u hated. All my reactions were geared toward those kinds of killers - the monsters, the enemies.

When u loved the one who was killing u, it left u no options. HOw could u run, how could u fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? If ur life was all u had to give ur beloved, how could u not give it?

If it was someone u truly loved?

If That's OK With You

hm..

Loveless

Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple

And the shadow of the day
will embrace the world in grey

How le?

Exciting?

Ofiicially Missing You

I personally love this song so much..!! Miss you =)

Deuteronomy 31:6

Be strong and courageous, don’t be afraid, nor be scared of them: for Yahweh your God, he it is who does go with you; he will not fail you, nor forsake you.”

Lovely Day - 박신혜

I love this song so much... Is from a drama that i recently watched : You are beautiful

살며시 날 깨워줘요 My sunshine
동화 속 공주처럼 눈을감고 기다릴거예요.
눈 뜨면 내 곁에 함게 할 loves hot
동화 속 왕자처럼 나를보며 웃어줄거죠.
나도 몰래 두 눈이 너만 그리고
또 몰래 두근거린 가슴이 소리치네요.

I wanna love you I wanna leeds
그대도 느기나요. 내 맘을
내게와요, 조금 더 다가와요. 내 맘을 가져요.
Everyday lovelyday 매일 속삭여 줄게요.
캔디보다 달콤한 사랑을 줄거예요.

마법에 주문을 걸어 샬랄라
따듯한 햇살같은 너의 미소 나를 들추긴
나도 몰래 가슴이 또 두근거려
두 눈에 아릇거려 이제는 말해볼래요.

I wanna love you I wanna leeds
그대도 느기나요. 내 맘을
내게와요, 조금 더 다가와요. 내 맘을 가져요.
Everyday lovelyday 매일 속삭여 줄게요.
캔디보다 달콤한 사랑을 줄거예요.

wanna love you wanna leeds
안아줄래요. Lovelyday 내 맘을 느껴봐요.
영원히 함께 해.
랄라랄라 랄라랄라 매일 행복만 줄거야.
캔디보다 달콤한 사랑을 줄거예요. 

English translation:

Wake me gently, My sunshine
Just like princess in the fairly tales, I will close my eyes and wait
When I open my eyes, please stay by my side, love shot
Just like prince in the fairly tales, look and smile at me
Even I do not know that, in my eyes there’s only you
And don’t know that my heart is throbbing, the sound of my heart beats

I wanna love you I wanna be with you
Can you feel it, my feeling
Come to me, come a little bit closer and take my heart away
Everyday lovely day everyday I will whispering to you again
Sweeter than candy, I will give my love to you

Reading the magic spells syal la la
Your smile appeared like the warm sunshine
My heart is throbbing again
Now said to me

I wanna love you I wanna be with you
Can you feel it, my feeling
Come to me, come a little bit closer and take my heart away
Everyday lovely day everyday I will whispering to you again
Sweeter than candy, I will give my love to you

Wanna love you wanna be with you
I will hug you tight. lovely day please try to feel my heart
Together forever
lalalala lalalala everyday I will bring only happiness
Sweeter than candy I will give my love to you

Loneliness

Loneliness

it is cold today... so cold. indeed the rain is falling and im alone. thoughts of life and love, meaningless to anyone but myself. im alone. they watch me, their eyes not knowing, knowing nothing of what they see. i'm but another creature, alone. they scurry on the surface, unaware, unaware of the life below when you are alone. loneliness, not a burden nor a sorrow, but a time of solace, of deepness never to be shared, never to be understood. they can never reach the place where I am and i know i will never reach the place where they are. i know I don't want to reach that place. true happiness is here, unmisted. unmisted by smiles or laughter, unmisted by the joys of company. to find true happiness, to know if one is truly happy, he must be happy alone.

Dog

I have been avoiding my previous life so long that writing this right now is giving me a jolt(anxiety). Flashbacks of a life once lost.

Well, again, the only reason i'm here is cause i feel alone and yeah i'm pretty damn bored, nothing to do, alone, whatever. Things have been pretty good. hm...

True i stil hav my bipolar disorder freak outs every now and again but i have been working through them -cigarattes as remedy, and even more impressive, i hav been supressing the more trivial/meaningles episodes. But today, i wanted to run away...

To explain this, i have ch00sen to be as vague as i could, just to avoid pleasing the certain people that thrive/imbedded well on other people's misery... What best i could do is name this post "Dog".

It is the name to the way i feel(not really true, but quite true :P) and the life i refuse to lead.

I reckon it just hurts when i have done the best at becoming a new me/life/style/person/anything-that-it-has-to-be, plus having a whole new border of mind only to worry if around ppl me are the same as they were before me (perhaps chocolate lover? dotA players? rofl~) or are they on a new page of the story like i am.

I guess im selfish, seasonal(i dont agree, but someone said it is), but i had done the best to care for it.

I promise.. this will be the only-other than the early intro post, and last post for my blog. Coz i dun like to post and blogging. its all becoz of Bosan, its driving me crazy.